Lila does love him and is really sweet to him, but I have yet to get a good picture of them together. As much as she likes to bring him his blanket and give him his paci if he is upset, she DOES NOT like to hold him. As soon as we put him on her lap, she is pushing him away saying No! Poor little boy. I will never forget how one night she was in her room with Michael getting ready for bed while I was in the living room nursing Graham. Michael put on her pj's and he said she grabbed her blanket and paci and took off out of the room. The next thing I know she walks straight over to me, takes out her paci, kisses Graham on the forehead and says "Nigh Nigh" and then turns and walks back to her room. It was so sweet! Now when I go to get her up in the morning, she leans her head around me and says "Baby?, Mee May?" Many times we have to go in my room and find him before I even get her diaper changed. She also likes to put her finger over her mouth and say, "Shh..Baby." One night, she was dead asleep and she woke up in the middle of the night. While changing her diaper, she takes her paci out and says "Shh baby" and then puts her paci back in. She repeated this several times. Speaking of waking up in the middle of the night....my perfect night time sleeper has woken up just about every night since bringing Graham home. When I say she has woken up, I mean she sobs and cries uncontrollably for several minutes. This is not like her at all. I don't know if she is having nightmares or if she knows something is different, but it is killing me. In addition to it breaking my heart, I don't need another child to get up with in the middle of the night. Sometimes it has happened around midnight and 2 or 3, and then just other times in the middle of the night. I am not sure what to do, but I feel so bad for her.
This has been a rough week over all for us though. I will just put it this way... Tuesday, I don't think I even used the bathroom until 1:45 pm. After being up all night with Graham on Wednesday night, I called Michael about 3 pm and begged him to come home from work on Thursday. I am not sure if I made it out of my pj's or got my teeth brushed either of these days. Attractive, I know. Graham is super gassy and his fussy time is late at night and in the mornings. It never fails, but he and Lila end up getting up at the same time every morning. It doesn't matter if I have already nursed him and he should be asleep, he wakes up. Or if he is up crying, she will wake up at a time that is not her norm. It is like they have this connection and can hear each other. For example, he will be dead asleep and I go in Lila's room to get her up and changed. In the middle of me changing her diaper, I hear him crying. I have faith that we will get a routine down soon though. Things have just been crazy with my work. Once that calms down, I will actually get to be a mom! :) For now, we are just taking it one day at a time! Yes, there have been many tears shed, but even more smiles crossing my face. Each days seems to bring not only tears of frustration, but tears of joy that I am so blessed with my perfect little family!
Tonight is the Halloween Party and we have our costumes. I know you can't wait!
