Baby Thoughts

I had my first dream last night about the baby. Is that bad that I am just now dreaming of him or her?? At first, I saw my children in a room together. There was Lila, Graham, and another little boy. The other little boy actually looked like a little Henry we know, but he was suppose to be my baby. Then, I dreamed that I had just given birth and they forgot to tell me the weight. All the Dr. put was .1. Weird! I thought. Then, I find out that "SHE" came out breach and weighed 10.3lbs or somthing crazy. I never saw her, but just knew I had delievered a girl. WHO KNOWS??? Why don't I have a feeling? Not knowing what we are having isn't what is driving me crazy. What is is that I don't have a feeling. Right now I say boy, but a month ago I said girl. I do feel like I am starting to want things ready, NOW! Unfortunately, there is not a lot of time for me to do so. I did get on a kick and totally reorganized my kitchen tonight. Those plans were not on Michael's agenda for the evening, but he did step in and help some. I want to paint, clean out the attic, and redo all my decor. I guess since I am not getting to do a nursery this time, I am "nesting" in other ways. Once I get through Lila's birthday party, then it is BABY TIME! By that I mean, preparing for baby. I want to bring down some clothes and wash them and get a few things ready. I am starting to get REALLY nervous about delivering this time. I just don't know if I can do it all natural again. I think ignorance was best for me in not knowing what to expect. This time I KNOW and boy it is not fun. I went to the Dr. today for my 34 week visit. Man, it has flown by. 6 weeks or less left. I just can't believe it. I think we may do another ultrasound around 38 weeks just to measure the baby. I want to know if I should expect another jumbo baby this time. Right now, I don't feel like I am as big, but you never know?? I do know that I am carrying a lot different then I did with both Lila and Graham. They both sat up a lot higher. My mom said maybe it is just gravitiy pulling it down by the 3rd time around! haha! I definitely don't think it is a cute, but what do you do?? I do know that none of that matters as long as I have a sweet healthy baby in my arms soon!....just not too soon! :)